It was the most wonderful day when we found out that I was pregnant, Although I was sick we were so happy that we were bringing another precious baby into the world. As noboby can keep secerts we told all about our surprise and of coase they were all so happy for us. Apart from being sick like i was with jayden, Every thing was going fine, untill the day I started to bleed, worried and scared i raced to the hospital to see what the problem was and they sugested i stay over night.The next day they moved me to another room they sent me for a couple of ultrasounds and the last ultrasound I had I found out we had a little girl to look foward to I was so excited I rang my mother Inlaw who was hoping for a little girl and broke the news to her, I thought it might cheer her up as that very day she had to say her goodbyes to her mum by the time her funeral was over i had found out we were going to loss jessica as you can imagine i felt pretty bad after that if only i had not told her. After the doctors told me the best thing to do is terminate I left the hospital hoping they had made a terrible mistake and just two weeks later I went into labor at 3.30 in the morning waking shaun to tell him I decided to go to a local hospial where I was staying and walked in with intence labor pains and they told me it would be best if I go to another hospital as they did not have the facilitys to look after me. I left there with out the offer of a wheelchair to walk me back to my car or a ambulance to another hospital. shaun and I left to drive 4 hours to the hospital where all my files where so we didnt have to expain ourselfs once again. on arriving there we where sat in a waiting room as there where no beds for me. Once they knew i was in labor they quickly found a room where i could have pain relif after about half an hour i was asked to start pushing and after only 2 goes she came out,a perfect little girl weighing just 260grm and 22.5cm in length we were able to bath & dress her and spent the night with her It was the most difficult night we ever had, one we would never change,nor forget or regret our lives will never be the same our hearts forever broken and some how our love for each other is stronger than ever I can only dream about our     little angel who was in our lives so breifly,she is always in my heart